December 21, 2011

No hope at all anymore. Just fucking not care anymore. She don’t fucking care, so why do you keep thinking of her and be reminded of her? Fuck you and fuck your mind. She has entirely fucked you over. Who cares about what others think of you? They don’t give a damn at all. They only pledge alliance to their friend. And me? What am I left with? Nothing. No answer no nothing. Give it up, give her up. C’mon you can do it! :( although I really hate how I’m feeling now but I know I have to not feel, not think and move on. Easier said than done. Hahaha. C’mon nat. No one ever cares about how much you did or tried. No one fucking cares! Sigh. Live on. Move on..

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December 1, 2011
"You cannot make yourself feel something you do not feel, but you can make yourself do right in spite of your feelings."

— Pearl S. Buck

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November 23, 2011

stop visiting her tumblr. she doesn’t care about you. if she did, things wouldn’t have turn out this way. perhaps she lied to you all along. give her time. let time do its job. and what happens? you get stabbed in your back and heart and you realised she has long found someone to replace you. all these while, you were patiently waiting for her and still loved her and cared for her. if she still treated you as a friend, she would have told you, shared with you and freaking reply your messages. haha seems like i have really lost my ultimate bestest “best friend forever” haha all lies and bullshit. c’mon focus on your life. LIVE YOUR LIFE NOW. DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS FEEL ANYMORE. FIND YOURSELF! AHHHHHHH 

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November 23, 2011

Remember the tears you shed for her. Don’t even shed a tear for her again.

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November 23, 2011

And here begins the lone battle. Good luck to me.

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November 22, 2011

(via deserted-goodbyes)

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November 22, 2011

i’m losing it. i’ve lost. 

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November 22, 2011

(via deserted-goodbyes)

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November 22, 2011

(Source: lovequotesrus, via ohmydarlinglove-deactivated2012)

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November 21, 2011
emilyhyphenjade: Dearest Allison,Today I am writing you my final letter. If you are reading this, it would be the 365th letter I have written since you departed from me exactly one year ago. You haven’t responded to any of my previous letters and, I have to think, that it means it was simply a summer fling. I’m still waiting for you. I want you to know. But I feel it’d be in both of our best interests for me to stop writing.I have to think that the two of us being together would hold beautiful things. I believe it was meant for us and that, without each other, we are living mediocre lives. Remember when we first met? Remember how we were two birds in the ocean? We could have flown away together, you know. Or lived together in the house I’m building for the both of us. Nothing is in the past to me. Love knows no past tense. You either never loved or never stopped. And I, dearest Allie, never stopped.The night we left each other, I heard your parents speaking about how we didn’t know love - how we were too young. But, Allie, what we had, was love. I can promise you that. No one in the world will ever be able to experience what we had. What we have. They will love, but not as whole-heartedly and selflessly. They won’t feel the stinging pain that occurs for every second you are apart from one another.But, Allison, I am truly sorry for whatever it was that I have done to drive you away. I am sorry if it seemed I didn’t love you enough, but I can assure you that I loved you more than I have ever loved anyone or anything. I loved so much it hurt. Thank you for laying in the street with me, thank you for being a bird, thank you for loving me as much as I loved you, thank you for teaching me about life and love and companionship. I want you to know that I am grateful for the person you are and the person you shaped me to be. In everything I do, I will think of you. And I hope you’re thinking of me too. Smile at what we had and smile at who you are. Live everyday to its fullest and be genuinely happy. That is what I wish for you. Happiness.I harbour no resentment towards you. I only have love and I wish the best things in the world for you. At the same time, I selfishly wish things could have ended on a different note. I am not bitter, nor am I angry. I find no fault in the decision you made because I can only see beautiful things when I look at you and only think beautiful thoughts about you and for you. Why? Because you are beautiful.Love always,Noah Calhoun

emilyhyphenjade:

Dearest Allison,

Today I am writing you my final letter. If you are reading this, it would be the 365th letter I have written since you departed from me exactly one year ago. You haven’t responded to any of my previous letters and, I have to think, that it means it was simply a summer fling. I’m still waiting for you. I want you to know. But I feel it’d be in both of our best interests for me to stop writing.

I have to think that the two of us being together would hold beautiful things. I believe it was meant for us and that, without each other, we are living mediocre lives. Remember when we first met? Remember how we were two birds in the ocean? We could have flown away together, you know. Or lived together in the house I’m building for the both of us. Nothing is in the past to me. Love knows no past tense. You either never loved or never stopped. And I, dearest Allie, never stopped.

The night we left each other, I heard your parents speaking about how we didn’t know love - how we were too young. But, Allie, what we had, was love. I can promise you that. No one in the world will ever be able to experience what we had. What we have. They will love, but not as whole-heartedly and selflessly. They won’t feel the stinging pain that occurs for every second you are apart from one another.

But, Allison, I am truly sorry for whatever it was that I have done to drive you away. I am sorry if it seemed I didn’t love you enough, but I can assure you that I loved you more than I have ever loved anyone or anything. I loved so much it hurt. Thank you for laying in the street with me, thank you for being a bird, thank you for loving me as much as I loved you, thank you for teaching me about life and love and companionship. I want you to know that I am grateful for the person you are and the person you shaped me to be. In everything I do, I will think of you. And I hope you’re thinking of me too. Smile at what we had and smile at who you are. Live everyday to its fullest and be genuinely happy. That is what I wish for you. Happiness.

I harbour no resentment towards you. I only have love and I wish the best things in the world for you. At the same time, I selfishly wish things could have ended on a different note. I am not bitter, nor am I angry. I find no fault in the decision you made because I can only see beautiful things when I look at you and only think beautiful thoughts about you and for you. Why? Because you are beautiful.

Love always,
Noah Calhoun


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